UTOPIA - BENCI

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BOF

What Do I Do By Jisun

geudaen neomu dang yeon han deus
oneul naege anbuleul mudneyo

nan geujeo jalji naen da haessjyo
geudaen jeongmal nal neomu moleujyo

geudaeeob sido naega gwaenchanh-eulgeos gatnayo
geudaeneun na eobsi gwaenchanhnayo

dangsin eobsneun sesangi neomudo himdeul eoseo
sumswineun naleul won mang haessjyo

eotteoghajyo ajigdonan geudaehanmadie buseojineun haluleul sal-ayo
geudaenaege malhaebwayo
ileoneunge nappun-inji geudaedo nacheoleom haluga apeugo tto apeunji
malhaebwayo geudaewa nan

imi neomu neuj-eossnayo uli dasi gihoeneun eobsnayo
nan ajig geudaelsaeng-gaghaeyo geudaen ama aljido moleujyo

gyeolgug ileongeongayo
ileohge kkeut-ingayo
geudaeneun idaelo gwaenchanhnayo

nan andoelgeos gat-eunde
geudaegat-eun salang-eul
jug-eodo naegen eobs-eultende

eotteoghajyo nae ma-eum-eun geudaeanimyeon nugudo an-ajulsu eobs-eultende
jebal naleul jab-ajwoyo
aljanh-ayo nalansalam amuli aesseodo geudaeleul jiulsuga eobsdangeol
jebal naleul jab-ajwoyo

eotteoghajyo ajigdonan geudaehanmadie buseojineun haluleul sal-ayo
geudaenaege malhaebwayo
ileoneunge nappun-inji geudaedo nacheoleom haluga apeugo tto apeunji
malhaebwayo geudaewa nan

imi neomu neuj-eossnayo uli dasi gihoeneun eobsnayo
nan ajig geudaelsaeng-gaghaeyo geudaen ama aljido moleujyo

Translation

You ask me how my day was as if it is same everyday
I say that I'm okay but you really don't know how I feel
Do you think I will be okay without you?
Will you be okay without me?
It is really hard to live in this world without you
That is why I blame myself for still breathing

What should I do? Even now, I live these painful days because of what you said
Tell me if this is a bad thing to do
Do you live every single day painfully like me?
You and me.

Are we too late? Do not we have a chance?
I still think about you and you might know this
Is it finally this? Are we going to end up like this? Is it okay with you?
I don't think I can do it. The love that I found by meeting you, I wont find it anywhere else even if I die

What should I do? If it isn't you, no one else can be in my heart
Please hold me. And you know that even though the whole world would try
No one can erase your memories. So please hold me.

What should I do? Even now, I live these painful days because of what you said
Tell me if this is a bad thing to do
Do you live every single day painfully like me?
You and me.

Is it too late? Do not we have a chance?
But me, I still think about you, and you might not know it.

Year 2014

Assalamualaikum..

First post in this new year 2014 even though it's already in the second month of the year. :D

Just wanna wish everyone happy new year and may all of u will be blessed throughout this year..

Do goods as many as u can and avoid any problems with anyone. :D

Wassalamualaikum..

decemberrrrrr

here come december finally..last month of every year! hiks no point just want to write something~~ :D

"The Wedding Breaker

2 Review yg buat eve senyum  yg pm eve jg provasi anda in shaa Allah.

Rev 1 :a.n.h.h.:2 August 2013 02:42

Salam....

Firstly, u are beautiful. seriously.

Secondly, A380 bring me to d other part of the world. hehehe.. seriously. it's ohsem! for me; as a reader. this is some kind of writing that i'm looking for. something that unusual story line and so on. tq dearie and hope to read lots more of your writing in future. hoho... we share same age. 

Review 2 :
aya2 August 2013 18:35

finish reading 13 jam a380...ur syle of writing do make me feel like im watching a movie instead of reading a novel..its like im an invinsible watcher in the movie and i can cry and laugh at the same time..

when hana feels sad, its like something had stab me right at my own heart..but when she happy, i cant stop smiling alone with the novel on my hand..also there are a lot of values that also gives me a reminder to myself...dont know if im just imagining things too much but i am very thankful for having the opportunity to get to know about u and ur writing in this blog even before TWB is out and now when ur second novel had been in the market~~ 

thanx a lot kak eve~~  keep writing more and i cant wait for more updates from u! 

P/s : alhamdulillah3x moga Allah touch your heart whilst reading this piece, amin

P/s : yg excited bg review eve appreciates them TAPI pls jgn terspoil storyline or ending. Kesian pd yg terseksa sbb lpas raya baru mereka akn dpt  slmt hari raya! "

This is a review from kak eve's page https://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Wedding-Breaker/406324619424645 and what makes me so happy was that the Review 2 is mine.. :D :D :D 

Thanx to kak eve cause my review do make u smile~~ keep writing more and spread the knowledge to other people including me.. Just cant wait for more of ur writing..chaiyok kak eve~ :D really glad to get to know u even just online~

When i thought that i was having a hard time to make a decision, there's a solution for one of the problems. Alhamdulillah. Now, im starting to feel comfortable with the roomates-solve another fear of incompatibility. Just left with one problem, find a house nearby usm to stay for next semester. I dont know whether all of this are good decision or not but i do hope this is a good one. After all, most of the time i do make my own decision and alhamdulillah everythings turn out to be a better choice (well at least for me).

Eventhough the results of my decision may not be as what i've expected or as what i want but then just believe in one thing, humans are not perfect and its not a harm to make mistakes and yes we do learn from our mistakes. Even a successful people tend to fail in their life before they achieve their own success.

Back to the topic, i take the things happen just now was a sign for me to choose the solution as it is. So yeah it enlighten my day/night for now. Have a nice day or life(forever).

during holiday

Assalamualaikum people, hectic week I think but still I can type this thing and also cant wait to finish the exam week as after that, holiday will come for another 3 months. But still as usual I don’t fully enjoy that 3 months holiday with family or friends (bestfriends I mean). My schedule for this upcoming holiday is as follows:

DATE	ACTIVITIES
18 June 2013	Finish exam (officially after finish my last paper)
19-26 June 2013	Packing my things and go home + enjoy my holiday
27 June 2013	Go to KL and have meeting regarding my training
28-30 June 2013	Go back home and packing my stuff and ready to go to Pahang for my training
1-31 July 2013	Training at Pahang Simen, Kuantan. L J
1-18 August 2013	Fasting+holiday at home+Eid Mubarak
19-26/28 August	Hockey (Training + Game)
29August-8September 2013	Final holiday before going back to USM for new semester

See, instead of 3 months holiday, mine is only few days ~ one month only. But I guess this is so cool as I have something to do during my holiday rather than I end up stuck at home + I can go to Pahang again(for 2^nd time I think) heeeeeeeeeeee. That’s all Im going to say~ :D. This last semester of 1 month training will give me at least some holiday before im going to be 3rd year senior and after that the training will be 3 months straight without any holiday (ok maybe eid mubarak holiday). Anyway i still enjoy with what i need to do even this thing maybe some kind of burden to me but i still like it as not many people had the opportunity to do things like i do! :D peace yo. assalamualaikum.